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Cuit!

cuit cuit cuit.
I feel insecure. Why should I?
I dont like this feeling. Ugh, I just wanna see him right now.

Ugh. It's just I've realize his changes. Dont you?
rase x sdp hati. Ohh me no likey.
Am I asking too much? Cuz I think I do.
He always look so tired. Ala. Time2 org tgh tulis bende ni, nk kluar lagu sedih plak.
Org da emo. Pergh.

Am I losing everybody?
I hate this part right here. Heh.

my version of love story, originally by taylor swift

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there on the road doing merentas desa
See the students, see them chase the prize
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Harith
You were throwing pebbles
And my mama said stay away from Amirah
And I was crying in my room
Begging you please don't go

And I said
Harith, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to basketball court to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes, escape this pit hole of sri kenangan for a while

Oh, oh, oh

'Cause you were Harith,
and my mama hate you
And my mama said stay away from Amirah
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go

And I said
Harith, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

Harith save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel
This LOVE is difficult, but it's REAL
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you at kedai mamak kader

And I said
Harith save me, I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and he pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Amirah, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

photoshop part 2

tgh buat. tp xtau nak ltk ke tak kat blog version yg tak full.

takyah la kan.
dia siap bru letak la.
okeh.
haha :P

budak sbelah meja

Aku mkn di sebuah restoran yang konon facy la. And ade sorg budak yg duduk di meja sbelah meja aku. So? Bace ape yg budak ni fikir.

Aku masuk restoran...
Pandangan pertama
Si budak : boleh tahan lawa pompuan ni

Aku dok kat meja sbelah meja dia...
Pandangan kedua
Si budak : ceh, nak dok bersila jugk. Hmm, lawa topi dia.

Aku order, then terkentut...
Pandangan ketiga
Si budak : busuknye, spe kentut ni. Eh, tersengih sengih plak dia.

Makanan dah sampai. Aku pon mkn...
Pandangan keempat
Si budak : makan beurger pkai pisau garpu. Pergh.

Da habis makan. Dan aku BURP sekuat-kuatnye...
Pandangan kelima
Si budak : adoi, xble kuat lg ke? Aku x habis mkn lg, dia da habis.

Aku main taik mate...
Pandangan keenam
Si budak : eeeeeeee, dia buat ape tu?!

Aku blk umah...
Si budak : pelik benor bdk tu.

...married happily ever after

i know i'm still young and stupid yadayada whatsoever. but i'm really just saying it because it's what i really want and i will try my best to give the best interest in it and will try to grab that chance of happiness.

here it goes.

i wanna get married. i mean with him. like seriously, i've never thought about marrying this one particular guy since... well since dangdut boy. i want him to be my husband. i want him to be the first to touch me, to hug me and to kiss me. i want him to be the father of my child and raise a family with him. i have it all figured out. i know its too early and all. but i cant help it just to plan out my future, with him. when i imagined it, its like a real true happiness. but, reality check, 'happily ever after' doesn't happen to anyone. so i realize i have to work really hard to get this happiness. and i've been planning everything since the day i want to marry him. i've sort things out.

it's just... he has to play his part too. i dont know how to put this in words. we need knowledge to survive. and to raise a family, we need money, other than love and commitment. RESPONSIBILITY. responsibility is important. it covers everything down to money, love, commitment. we need all that to survive marriage and gain that 'happy ever after'. i've done everything i could. but i need him to play his part to get THIS THAT EVERYTHING. i really hope it'll all work out, somehow.

after all that we've been through, i have to marry him. i have to. and i want to.

and that's why if you wanna marry me, you have to study. from now. sigh.

atuk

ari tu tok abah dtg. me and tok abah, tak rapat sgt. tak rapat langsung, to be exact.

but ari tu dia dtg. pastu i was fighting with my cousin. afiq. i want my mp3 back. afiq curi. so gadoh. patu tok abah cakap "ape bende ni? gadoh gadoh." patu i smiled at him. i dont know why.

then he touched my face. he said something like "eleh". i dnt recall. then, i just felt something. oh, and he smiled when he touched my face.

i felt like i actually matter in his life. and i know tht he matters in my life. since then, i keep noticing that whatever i do, or anyone else does for that matter, he notice. he's observing everything even if he doesnt say anything. and i kind of know when he smiles, if he really is smiling or not. i mean, sometimes he smiles, but i know he's not happy. i just felt like it.

when he touched my face and smiled, he seems happy.

i dnt knw why i wrote this. it's just, when he touched me, i feel... i dnt knw, something big and unexplainable. i couldnt tell anyone. so i wrote.

is it psychotic to write this? it seems so. heh.

in love

please be noted, that i am irrevocably in love <3

whatever you like

kisah cinta yang sebenarnye, semua berasaskan kebendaan. ayat kheling+skema. aku tau.

aku suke lagu whatever you like by T.I yg hensem nk mati tu.

"my chick could have what she want
and go to any store for any bag she want
and know she aint never had a man like tht
to buy her anything her heart desire like that
yea i want ur body, need ur body
long as you get me you wont need nobody
you want it i got it, go get it i buy it
tellem other brok nigga be quiet"

BABY YOU CAN HAVE WHATEVER YOU LIKE.
aku suke ayat tu. and aku pasti ramai pompuan suke klu bf dorg ckp camtu kat dorg.
face reality, man. love has become something materialistic :P

i face it.

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